T-3 Days Pre-Op Appointment

Shit.  That's all I can say.

I just want to cry and before the day's out I'm sure I will. The doctor's appointment went well.  No doubt about it my knee is "non-functioning" without a brace.  Mary and Carla were with me for the appointment and saw him move my knee in what Mary said looked like "poltergeist" ways (I'm thinking of the Exorcist) that made them both a bit squeamish.  Luckily I didn't see that.

I've got my pre and post op orders and prescriptions for pain meds, anti-nausea meds, and prophylactic antibiotics.

I do not have clearance for travel a mere 2 weeks post-op.  I have a weekend on Lake Burton planned for me and my kids.  My knee - according to my doctor - -will still be too swollen to risk a 2 hr plane ride and 2 hr car ride.  No, I don't want a freakin blood clot on top of all this.  Fuck my life.
Seriously.  I am trying hard to not to be a big baby about this but seriously.  I want to throw things.  I want to scream.  I want to go to Lake Burton.  I miss my kids.  I want to go!!!!  It's our HAPPY PLACE and right now I need a happy place

Can I not catch a break?????